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On the right, a picture of me as well as my faithful dog Mac and my wonderful cats Shadow & Gadget.
I got saved watching The Gospel Bill Show as a young teen and got baptized as an older teen.
I quit my job of 17 years when they stopped paying me all because I ultimately refused the choice of them inserting something in my arm or in my forehead.
And he causeth all, both small and great, rich and poor, free and bond, to receive a mark in their right hand, or in their foreheads: Revelation 13:16
I can’t say for sure but I do believe they really tried to create it to push true believers out of society.
God has not yet lead me to a job, instead;
God has since lead me to move, drastically reduce my expenses as well as create this website.
I am hoping that with this work, I will bear good fruit, leading people closer to Jesus.
Covert Narcissism
I also got divorced around the same time, a true liberation. I was married to a women for 10 years who lied about loving God and instead hated him.
She blamed God for the suicide of her boyfriend before me. I wish I realized at the time how big and bright red that flag was.
She really changed right after the wedding, I though I finally saw the real her but no she got worse over time. Lets just say that I am grateful that she has thought me all that I will ever need to know about covert narcissism.
This is why I am truly grateful. Over the years she opened my eyes to her narcissistic parent, and it was truly really bad. I am ashamed to say that I didn’t realize that my ex was also a narcissist until after she left. I feel even more ashamed that I never saw the elephant in the room. I had also been raised by at least one narcissistic parent.
I was almost completely ignored by one parent and shamed for being a man and completely controlled by another, making sure to keep everyone away from me and even got between me and my ex wife.
I made a mistake of buying my parents home, and I had a parent who did everything they could to push my ex out and as soon as she was out they tried to bully themselves into moving in with me the second she was gone. I knew I could never let that happen again so that was another reason I had to move far away.
As for my ex, I did love her, she was beautiful at least on the outside. Sometimes I did feel stuck as a christian, no matter how bad she treated me all I could do was treat her good, pray and hope for better. So choose wisely.
She left with the car and the clothes on her back one day without warning. I was left wondering where she went and when she would be back for months. When I finally saw her a few months later she was in a relationship and pregnant with his child.
As a note, we were married for 10 years and she even completed a 3 year bible school course.
My divorce was not televised but it would have looked a little bit like this.
So I got divorced, I sometimes wonder why this happened to me. The short answer I would say is that God wanted me to learn about narcissism and get rid of all narcissists in my life. I truly wish her the best as she has struggled much with mental illness.
I have No Kids
If one thing my wife had against me is that I did not give her any children. She forgets to mentions that she made me wear condoms since one month after we were married when she was late on her period. She told me she had health issues and could not have children. Also she forbid me from having Guns, Painkillers or Children in the home due to multiple suicide attempts and fear that she could hurt them. This was not an issue until the end when I believe she was either pregnant or was having unprotected sex with someone else.
Was I the perfect husband?
No, I Do believe I did fail to protect her from narcissist in my family, Better narcissists that she knew than strangers . I do feel that she did take away having children from me and blamed me for it.
Pharmakia
I also did not try hard enough to dissuade her from anti depressants. She kept having horrible nightmares of going to hell. I told her to go to the doctors to hopefully get counselling. Instead he put her on medication right away. It was fine at first but then they had to change her medication a few times. Every time they did, her personality changed as well. At the end she stopped taking them, cold turkey when she was told not to do that. Unfortunately that did not bring her back to where she started but instead she was very different.
Some strange things
One time she told me she could kill me in my sleep and I told her you can’t God will protect me. After careful consideration I would not recommend this as the only course of action.
The last week together was a roller coaster she was in a car accident with a concussion. She was talking weird and loud but there was no damage to the car and I was told that she might be faking it. She did go the hospital with her friend. I suspect that she might have instead found out she was pregnant with the other guy. I say this because the day before she left she was begging for it more than she had in 10 years. It just so happened that my shoulder was hurting really really bad. I told her but she kept on insisting and as I was still trying to figure out if she was ok by the weird way she was talking. Even though my shoulder was not ok and she was not ok, she was begging so much that in my head i’m like ok. At that very moment as I am standing outside the bedroom door a vision of a tall Angel appeared beside me, he put his hand on my hurting shoulder and held me back from entering in the bedroom where my wife was. I now think she could have been trying to pin the baby on me, as she had unwisely cut me off for too long. Her plan didn’t instantly work, she freaked out and left the next day. But I can’t say for sure what she was thinking.
On the day that she left she started an argument that didn’t make much sense. As we were arguing I saw a vision of 2 little dark shadowy demons creatures flying around her cellphone. Here is someone who saw something similar.
14 Year Girl Dies & What Jesus Revealed About SOCIAL MEDIA Will Shock You – NDE
I had a dream after she left, she looked much younger in the dream like a child and she said please forgive my mother. I thought it was my ex referring to her narcissistic mother. Shortly after waking up from the dream that morning I get a call from my ex and she told me that she just gave birth to a baby girl.
Weird at church
I have also had some major issues with churches, A pastor borrowing money from almost everyone in the congregation, faking his death and fleeing the country.
A church abruptly stopping the praying in the name of Jesus and seeing nothing wrong with it.
I even got kicked out of my father’s funeral. I was a little surprised as it was the church that I, my father and grandfather attended for decades. All 3 of us had served as ushers for many years.
Thankfully it was at the end, as I approached the pastor to talk to him he just pointed and kept repeating go, go go. I left dumbfounded.
Many years later I learned that my Mother chose my father’s funeral to reignite a 30 year old feud. She later told me she had been scowling at him for 15 mins before I approached him and very proud of it.
The last church I attended I was told by someone I was sitting in his seat twice (same person, same day, 2 different seats) He kept on insulting me and even growled at me twice at the mention of Ron Wyatt. He even knocked on my door the following Saturday at 8:45 am, I Got up and he just told me you don’t seem awake yet and left.
I haven’t been back to church. I have been struggling with the Russian Angel’s advice. He both said to keep going to church in the end times even if the church is not perfect. He also said it is extremely dangerous to interact with demon possessed people.
My faith has not been shaken.
I have been spending much time reading and listening to the bible as well as many preachers online.
My Favorite Preacher is : TheOnceLostAndNowFoundSheep
Asking God for wisdom
If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him. James 1:5
I asked God for Wisdom probably over 100 times in the course of my life, he would give and I would ask for more.
I would also listen to the book of Proverbs over and over, hundreds of times, literally.
I had a discussion with God about this verse:
The fruit of the righteous is a tree of life; and he that winneth souls is wise. Proverbs 11:30
I was like Father, you have given me wisdom, yet I am so shy that I am not very good at winning souls.
I sorta asked him to prove my wisdom to myself via this verse.
Glory to God for this website. I believe it was the answer to my prayer.
I was really Sick
I was around 18 years old, I had lost weight really quick and ended up with Gull stones. Long story short I got my gallbladder removed. Now before the operation I was in really bad pain for a few days. After the operation I was in extreme pain for a couple years. When they removed the gallbladder they left stones in the Gull Duct. I remember that this was the time I started to listen to God’s word like 8+hrs a day. I remember not working for over a year and being a few months behind on rent. I eventually got an MRI (there was a 2 years waiting list back then) They noticed the gull stones and I finally got an operation to remove the stones left in the gull duct. I have been much better ever since. I did end up getting that Government Job shortly after and was able to pay back all the rent that was owed.
I do remember being in so much pain I thought I would die from the pain itself. I also remember not sleeping for days, and when I did finally fall asleep for an hour or two I would be woken up by the pain and that was such a horrible feeling. Being so tired and in so much pain that I couldn’t sleep.
The Time I almost starved myself to death
This was about 1 1/2 years after I lost my job. I spent all the money and time I had on fixing my house to be able to sell it. I was unable to receive EI (unemployment insurance) due to me quitting my job because of bullying over the mandates. I also chose not to go on welfare (social assistance). I worked for the Government. (Am I going to beg my employer for a fraction of my income after they bullied me out of a job?) No! I chose to fall into God’s hands instead, whatever that meant.
I did apply for a couple jobs to no avail so I had decided to try to sell the house before I would lose it all.
Now I had been fasting and intermediate fasting for a while. I was funding my food by selling my possessions. I hadn’t sold anything in a while so no groceries. All I was eating is a protein shake a day and that was it.
I started having muscle cramps all over my body. I think a family member took pity and offered a meal a day at their home. It lasted 3 days until they insisted I watch a video. I was shown a video of a male’s privates while my family member was staring right at me with a huge grin on their face and I was like no more. That was the last time I entered their home.
Now I was ok with suffering, I knew that whatever happened to me would fall back on my employer, my bosses and their children and I didn’t really care at the time.
As the muscle cramps were getting worse, I remember the day that I said no, no matter what happens I will never go the the hospital or see a doctor again. (after mandates). As soon as I said that, my muscle cramps got even worse and the cramps I was getting in my whole body started moving to my heart.
Now I thought this was a spiritual attack because of the timing and the truth is that I didn’t even realize that I was really lacking that much in nutrition.
One protein shake a day for over a month now or perhaps even longer in combination with periods of fasting was no longer enough.
Thank God my house sold soon after and my muscle cramps left almost right away once I started getting nutrition again.
Looking back, I think I was lacking either carbs, sodium or potassium in my diet.
My family had no idea, so I can’t blame them. I kept this all to myself. I did not seek social assistance, food bank or asked anybody for help but God.
I have been young, and now am old; yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread. Psalms 37:25
Mac and Me Unbelievable Stories
A wolf in Gatineau Quebec
As I am walking Mac on a foggy day I barely see a wolf lying oddly half on the side and half on the road maybe 200 ft away. A week or two later on another walk a female wolf jumps out of the bush of a neighbors yard and she is now 3 feet from me and Mac. She startled me for sure but she was not aggressive at all. She was just a little smaller than Mac and sat on her tail facing us with her tail between her legs pointing it at us. With the tip of her tail maybe 2 feet away from Mac. I could smell her pheromones and Mac did too. She was so beautiful and Mac was sitting and smiling ear to ear and gently waging his tail. I had Mac on a leash and and I just let my wrist drop maybe an inch to try to fully relax and the leash made a slight sound. She heard it alright and considered running away for a second but she looked at me and decided to stay there a few mins. All 3 of us frozen there. She started licking herself. I considered letting Mac go to have fun but I was worried about ticks, and that maybe he wouldn’t want to come back. I have since learned more about wolves and it’s possible she was trying to lure him back to the pack for food. I would like to believe that she had been tracking him for a while and realized her only chance to meet him was to meet me too and truly had chosen fully equipped Mac to make wolf puppies. I am thankful I didn’t let him off the leash just in case.
When i got him, he had always been the pack leader. Mac liked to jump on people for fun, it scared them because he is so big and that was no longer acceptable. I had to pass some tests before he would let me lead. No one would go near his food or a toy in his mouth. I did, he growled, it was scary but that’s when he decided to test me. We are playing outside and he decides to charge at me. When I mean charge, he had gotten to full running speed jumped head first in my chest. I knew he was playing chicken, I could have stepped out of the way but a voice inside me said to take the hit. It hurt but it was the first time I would say he started to let me lead.
The following Sunday, funny how God works sometimes, I was visiting a new church and a young man that I didn’t know at all tried to walk right into me multiple times to try to intimidate me for some reason. In my head I was laughing as he was not even half as intimidating as Mac had been.
A bear in Gatineau Quebec
I had my cats on a tether in my front yard and I decide to walk Mac around the block on a sunny day. As we are ending our walk, as I turn the corner, with just one house left in between me and my yard and just about where we met the wolf. On the other side of my yard and one house further away I see a huge brown bear. I really didn’t know they got that big, I would guess that he was between 5 ft and 6 ft high while standing on 4 legs. So just 3 houses away from me with my house in the middle there is a bear walking towards me, mac and my cats. There was no way that I was going to let that bear have cat on a rope as a snack. So I start marching towards home and right towards that bear. I had been trying to convince Mac to let me lead on walks to no avail but in that moment Mac started walking sheepishly behind me with not even a single bark the whole time. I think Mac gained a lot of respect for me that day. Now the bear saw us and my interpretation is that he was just a little annoyed to see us because he had the road all to himself and now he had to go back in the forest and did just that. All of us made it home safe.
Mac makes my Ex look bad
Mac was supposed to be my ex’s dog but it was originally owned by the guy who stole my ex wife. So you can almost say he traded me his dog for my ex wife. Maybe they used Mac to distract me while they were dating, I guess it worked. But I think I might have had the better part of that deal. Mac truly has a good heart and only wants to do good for people. He is faithful and loyal. He is so fun to be around and he is always happy to see me. I never have to worry if I will be back stabbed or yelled at for no reason. I have no doubt that he will make it to heaven. He is a really good boy.
Mac is only my second dog
When I was in grade school I had a dog named Teddy for a few months. My parents told me he ran away. I remember crying everyday and looking for him for months. When I was 18 one parent confessed that they put him down because he barked too much but eventually recanted it when I got mad about it.
Cast out a demon in Ottawa Ontario
As I was walking by the art museum going to work very early in the morning. A man was walking alone swearing really loudly. Yelling with a lot of F bombs and what I would call demonic tongues. I saw this man do this exact same thing at the exact same place and at the exact same time 3 days in a row. On the third day I got really annoyed and yelled something like this. I command you demons to come out of this man and go back to the pits of hell in the name of Jesus Christ. His head instantly turned to face me, his mouth gaped opened, staring blankly at me and he became silent. I never saw him again.
I saw an Angel in Gatineau Quebec
I was 18 years old and this time I was biking to work to Ottawa from Gatineau. This happened near the Champlain Bridge. As I am biking on the bike path I see ahead of me a young man and a young women walking towards me next to each other with heads down. The Man had huge wings and the women looked completely human. I have no idea if the woman could see the wings or the man at all. The wings were folded and maybe extended 2 head lengths above the shoulders and almost touched the ground. The most interesting thing was that the wings had like a black aura and the feathers were transparent. The best way I could describe it is that each feather was incredibly detailed and looked like they were each made of tinted glass. Apart from the wings the man looked human. Now I needed to investigate, is this girl in trouble? Who is this Angel? As I am biking towards them I decided to go confront him directly. In that instant a voice in my head loudly said don’t stop and keep going and I did just that.
2 incredible Angel encounters
Now, I have had 2 different angel encounters involving the Russian Angel. I have written about them on that page.
The first encounter lead me to his documentaries and I have to say contributed in a big way in the creation of this site.
The documentaries have helped me to align more with God’s will of leading people to Jesus.
Will Jesus be happy with what I have built here when he returns?
The second involved a dream of the Russian Angel talking to God and pointing at me in the throne room. That was the only time I have even been there in a dream or otherwise.
2 Hamsters Escaped
My ex had 2 hamsters in a cage that escaped overnight. Now when I notice they had escaped I thought that for sure my Cats ate them. My male Cat Gadget had recently caught a mouse and left it in his food bowl and Shadow is a African Black Footed Cat and one of the most successful hunters. So you can understand that I thought for sure I was going to find 2 dead hamsters. To my surprise a mini miracle happened and they were both found alive and well and the cats had not eaten them. Maybe they understood that they were family, Nonetheless, like Daniel with the lions, God must have been with them that night.
My God sent His angel and shut the lions’ mouths, so that they have not hurt me, because I was found innocent before Him; and also, O king, I have done no wrong before you.” Daniel 6:22
I worked before Kings
I worked for 4 Canadian Prime Ministers, (Chrétien, Martin, Harper and Trudeau). Mostly as a Messenger but also as a Cabinet Attendant in which I was honored to meet Kings, Presidents and Prime Ministers of Various Nations.
I am at the far Right with 2 people between me and Justin Trudeau.
Seest thou a man diligent in his business? he shall stand before kings; he shall not stand before mean men. Proverbs 22:29
I lost Over 100 lbs and Kept it off
Perhaps one of my biggest accomplishments was being able to lose over 100 lbs of weight and keep it off with diet and exercise.
Blessed be the LORD my strength, which teacheth my hands to war, and my fingers to fight: Psalms 144:1
He teacheth my hands to war, so that a bow of steel is broken by mine arms Psalms 18:34